fable

ecp

2012-02-09T21:45:00.001+08:00

Thursday, 9th February 2012

Last Sunday cycling @ ecp.

Will update soon.

Xx.

2012-02-05T00:46:00.009+08:00

Sunday, 5th February 2012

Hi, I will be back soon for a proper update.

Well, being extremely busy with work and have been treasuring

my off days to meet my precious boyrfriend and girlfriends.

Toodles.

Xx.

catch ups

2012-02-04T01:00:00.000+08:00

Saturday, 4th February 2012

Managed to meet this two lovely girls for lil while on I can't remember when.

Sorry that I got to go off early and catch up soon, sweetheart.

missing this gurl

2012-02-03T23:25:00.006+08:00

Friday, 3rd February 2012

With my dearest Ayuni the other day.

Much missess.

Hope we'll stay as close as last time.

Miss those times in school (,:

intoxicating night

2012-01-29T15:51:00.001+08:00

Sunday, 30th January 2012

See, how fat i've become...

Finally, today is my off day after working four days straight. Obviously i'm extremely shagged and lethargic. Ever since I started working back, my life is in great mundane. It's apathetic. I don't even have the time to spent with family, boyfriend and friends. I can't deny that I really miss those times but I guess I have to endure for another two months till my contract end. By then, I will convert to part time as i'll be starting school by then.

Anyways, I really had a great time spent with my bestest girlfy Shirah yesterday. We both worked in the same mall but it's just that we're in the different levels. After work ended, met Shirah and laze nearby. Then, we thought of having supper at Wendy's since I was craving for baked potato and she was hungry too. I swear i've grown extremely fat than ever. I kept on eating non stop and I don't even know sometimes if i'm full or not. This is so damn terrible. I made my weekly resolution, to follow up on my diet plans starting from tomorrow. Hopefully, it'll be a success.

Back to where we are. Oh yeah, we had our supper and laze around there until midnight and then, we bussed back home. I went back to granny's place since its nearby her house. We walked back home and something eerie and scary happened.

While we were both walking home. There's this man riding his bicycle cycling towards our direction and we saw a hand from behind hugging his stomach area so tightly. We thought it was just a usual normal thing but as the man cycle past us, we had goosebumps. We then turned behind and saw a lady with long hair, still hugging him from behind but the lady remained so stiff. The silly thing was that, we both tego and talked about it on the spot. The more we talked about it, the more we felt there's something. I felt the goosebumps until the top of my head. How ironic?

Since Shirah was so afraid, sent her off further down the road and called her until she safely reached home. Ahahaha. What a great and fun night we had. Reached home around 0200 hours and zzzzzzzz.

Alright I gotta get ready now. Going to meet my boyfie. It's been ages since we met.

Toodles!

Happy 16th Monthsary!

2012-01-20T18:47:00.001+08:00

Friday, 20th January 2012

Happy 16th Monthsary, sweetheart!

Thinking about future now; engagement and wedding.

We're starting to save money, soon.
Insyallah, the day will come <3

god bless

2012-01-20T18:43:00.000+08:00

Friday, 20th January 2012

I'm living on cloud nine once more and yes, i'm buoyant and blessed with everything right now. On the 17th - 19th January, Naqib and I had our very own chalet at Costa Sands Resort Pasir Ris. It was just the both of us. I really enjoyed every milliseconds of my time spent with you and I love the fact that you're constantly by my side. I miss that feeling <3

So, anyways. I applied for JPSAE which is a special poly admission. I fully made use of all the three choices. I actually had an interview at Nanyang Poly on the 18th January but well, I gave it a miss. I know its such a waste because I was shortlisted! Yes, i'm shortlisted! But its okay. While I was at the chalet, an unknown number called. It was a call from Temasek Poly! I was shortlisted again and was asked to go for an interview on the 19th January. And yes, I did as I really want this course. It's Retail and Hospitality Design.

Ya'allah, I really hoped that I get into this course. Before I went to the interview, I went to my school back and took my portfolio and testimonial. The previous night, I asked my dnt teacher to write me a testi and she did wrote for me on that spot.

I just hoped my two testimonials and portfolio will really help me in the special admission. How was the interview? Urmm it was okay and I kinda got shocked when there are three people interviewing me. Haha. Ya'allah hopefully, I really get into this course gosh really want this so badly. Bohooo.

But results will only be released on the 30th of this month ): Anyways, today is my first day of work but yeah, i'm too somnolent that I slept till late afternoon. Now, I don't know if I should MIA or called my shop and gave them a good reason why I didn't attend my first day of work.

First day of work, absent. What a good impression i've set! Haha!

cycling @ east coast park

2012-01-10T16:54:00.072+08:00

Tuesday, 10th January 2012

Last Sunday @ East Coast Park.

I really had a mirthful and perky time with my dearest love as we cycle around East Coast the other day. Though it was just a short two hour cycle, I really had fun. Unfortunately, the weather that day was very bad and it showers every now and then. Since the ground were wet, the back of our shirt got dirtied and despite that, we keep on going.

I really had fun as we played with the waves till my pants got very drenched. We managed to build sandcastles, watched the sunset which would actually make a good view if the sun doesn't hide behind the clouds. I really hope that one day, that one fine day, you and I will be able to watch the sunrise/sunset together...

Though it was just a simple date, I really enjoyed every of my moment with you. Thank you for making my day and never fail to make me smile. Thank you for the happiness that you've given me. Thank you for the efforts and sacrifices that you've done for me. I can't deny that you're my only one and you're my bestest man on Earth.

I don't know what more should I say. I'm speechless. Ever since I was back in your embracement, I started to settle down and my life wasn't that haywire anymore. Thank you for everything Muhd Naqib E'zuwan.

Forever and always, i'll be loving you.

Xoxo.

thank god I made it

2012-01-10T11:50:00.002+08:00

Monday, 9th January 2012

Upon receiving my results, I was blanket by great apprehensiveness and anxiety. I was hoping for the best and have prepared for the worst as I knew my results wouldn't be that excellent. When it was my turn, I scanned through my results as my teacher passed my result slip to me and found out that I did quite okay. I questioned my form teacher in great curiosity if I made it to poly or not. She then said "You bearly make it"

I looked at her in great despair and asked her what does she mean by that? It can mean to things; I made to poly but exactly on the dot or I almost made it but I didn't. I stood in aghast and when she said yes, I made it, I was so damn contented! Heavenly contented indeed!

After a short brief, I ran down to the back of the hall where Naqib and Neshah were seated at. While on my way there, I was smiling from ear to ear in great blithe. I then dashed up to Naqib and hugged him so tightly and disclosed the surprise that I actually made it to polytechnic.

Everyone was surprised that I made it to poly and a sigh of relief were finally released. First person that I made phone call to was Naqib's mum as she congratulate me and was happy for me. Secondly, was my mum who Naqib spoke to as I was busy making phone calls. Haha.

Alhamdulilah, I made it to poly even though my score wasn't that impressive but it's okay because I understood that this year's result was terrible and the moderation sucks. I only scored one distinction which is so urmm yeah disappointing because I was expecting at least two distinction. Another one from my d&t in which I scored a four points for it. It's still okay for me because I deserved this points as I only studied last minute and as you knew, I kept on procrastinating. I only studied one day before my paper. How's that? Nevertheless, I am still blessed that I made it and yes, i'm very perky and convivial right now.

Most course that i'm eligible for are those designs and media course. Hmm, now i'm stressing up what course should I take. Considering to take Digital Media Design Games and Interior Design as my top choices. Still considering.... As I've got twelve choices to fill up.

Thank you to my dearest Naqib and Neshah for being there for me. As for Shirah, it's okay. I understood that you have school. Naqib, thank you for always giving me the support and guiding me throughout my life. Thank you for always being there for me through it all. You're the bestest <3

Alright, I guess that's all for now.

Toodles!

O'level result day

2012-01-09T12:44:00.000+08:00

Monday, 9th January 2012

Apparently, the day has come... It's O' Level result day. Right now its 1235 hours and i'm still at home. Anxiety surrounds me and my heart throbs to think of my results. As I've said before, I don't really mind if I've failed because I've prepared for the worst. I knew which private school should I take to pursue my studies in Diploma.

Failure or success, I have pledged myself to continue schooling. To keep on going. I wanna end my education at least at Degree. It doesn't matter how long it took me to be successful, as long I keep on going and doesn't stop, I will succeed.

I believed in myself. I have faith in me. Failure is not the end. It's the beginning of success. Learnt from mistake. Oh gosh, I just want this shitty feelings to be gone. I just wanna get my results and not doubt anything anymore.

The part that i'm afraid is when my its my turn to receive my result and my teacher will give me that look and say;

" Aisyah, you've....."

Damn! Actually, I have a feeling that imma fail already! Haha nevermind, gonna take private then. Hekhek.

Nevertheless, wish me luck!

Xoxo.

mood killer

2012-01-07T23:43:00.002+08:00

Saturday, 7th January 2012

So... Just now I've sent my resignation letter to the store with my dearest Neshah. Thereafter we trained down to town. Today was such a mood killer. Many issues and problems soared along the way. Well, I don't wish to elaborate. Let's make it simple. We idled around and I swear there's still crazy sales going around.

The disappointing thing was my... pay! Sigh, was supposed to get my pay yesterday but I just remembered that I hadn't submit my passbook and hence, my pay will be given by cheque. I've got no idea when. I really need the money so badly. Haiz.

Right now, finding a new job. Thought I wanna switch brand but I don't know if it's a little to late. Thought of changing brands to Bershka, Pull&Bear or Quicksilver&Roxy. I called the HR this morning but to no avail. I guess I have to call them this Monday then.

Tomorrow, am having a date with my deasrest boyfie Naqib. We're going cycling at East Coast. Let's pray hard that he will make my day and lift my spirits up...

freedom once again

2012-01-05T10:52:00.001+08:00

Thursday, 5th January 2012

Good morning everyone! Rise and shine! It's 1037 hours and i'm already awake. I was supposed to fetch Naqib from work just now but every of our plans went haywire. Hence, we'll be meeting in the evening later on. Yayay! Naqib will also be making it up to me since he's the one who change the plans. He's gonna bring me out today and I wanna eat popeye's. Yummy. Urmm erkk, actually I prefer Wendy's! Cheese baked potato and quarter pounder are my all time favorite!

Gosh, talking about food made me hungry now. Erk i'm craving for Macdonald's hotcakes w sausage. Yummy! Never mind, when I got my pay tomorrow I will omnomnomnomnom them all! Hooray! Moving on, life seems to be pretty good which are surrounds by ease and mirthfulness. I made a promise to myself to change for the better and treat Naqib royally and with respect. I wanna show him that I really appreciate everything that he've done for me. The sacrifices, efforts, commitment and so on. I never never never ever want to ever lose him again. <3

On a lighter note, finally I have all the time to laze on my bed and wake up anytime that I want to. Yesterday, I didn't serve my one day notice and I let the company deduct one day pay of mine. Now, i've finally resigned and have been released from the company. I will be finding a new job as soon as possible. I don't want retail or f&b anymore. I want office hour job or customer service.

What I miss the most? Going outing with Naqib every now and then. I know it's so random but yeah... Hmm. I guess i'll just end here. My eyelids are heavy. I wanna get back to sleep.

P/s: 4 more days to O'level result @ 2pm

intricate perplexity

2012-01-02T13:19:00.031+08:00

Tuesday, 3rd January 2012

I don't know why I made such a drastic decision upon quitting my job the moment I woke up in the early morning just now. I was supposed to work today but eventually, gave it a miss for the rest of my life and texted my supervisor that i'm resigning. Last three days, I did wanna leave this job. In the middle of working hours, I packed my stuff, told my supervisor to just release me as i'm resigning. I virtually left until he calm me down and have a talk with me.

So... I just did my letter of resignation. I was constantly drawn back with regrets upon resignation. I don't know if I made the right choice. It's so intricate to be in this kind of complexity state but... Sigh. First thing first. I love my job, i'm allowed to wear anything that I want and allowed to request my off days. Secondly, about my pay. I worked as temporary full time but paid according to part time. I don't get the benefits of full time; annual leave, claim hours, commissions etc.

It's so bewildering. Tomorrow will be my last day working and I gotta get a job as soon as possible. Or shouldn't I quit? Just finish up my contract by end of this month? Cause if I quit I won't have money. How to survive for another three to four months of my holidays? Should I just stay should I? At most stay until end of the month?

Why is it so contradicting?

Greetings to 2012

2012-01-02T13:11:00.002+08:00

Monday, 2nd January 2012

Say hello to 2012 and goodbye 2011!

Finally, I have the time to do a proper update. So here it goes. Well, I have been utterly busy with nothing else but work, work and work. I absolutely and exclusively miss having my freedom. Freedom to do whatever I want. What I miss the most are to spent time with my family, dearest boyfriend and my beloved girlfriends. Now, my schedule is so tight that I barely have anytime to spare for my love ones.

On a lighter note, O'level result is in seven days time. Terrified? Excited? Agitated? Alarmed? All of the feelings stirred together. I'm hoping for the best, preparing for the worst. Worst to worst, I will take private diploma. All planned and discussed with my parents. Thank god they always have my back no matter what. <3 Obviously, I will go to poly if I'm eligible to. Hmm.

Ultimately, I have an effing good news. It got to do with my dream job and something that I wanna do all along. Despite that, I will not divulge and disclose anything yet. Awaiting for my results and then I will blog to state my future plan ahead.

I gotta various alternative plans and path to take. Right now, I'm in great dilemma which path should I take but my results is holding me back. Hence, I gotta be patience and await for my result before taking any further steps...

Enough of that, back to where we are. I was actually supposed to work morning shift today but I was down with an upset tummy. I guess i'm feeling better already now. It seems that i'm having quite a number of plans today! Yayay!

I feel like quitting my current job because my salary is so little, especially after deducting cpf. I'm a temporary full time; work five days a week. But my salary are paid by hours which won't even reach a thousand or even nine hundred after deducting cpf. About getting another job is simple because I guess i have alternative places to work at. And again, it's my result that holds me back...

New Year Eve

2012-01-01T12:17:00.037+08:00

Sunday, 1st January 2012

Love them both muchy <3

New Year Eve.

Mundane. Apathetic.

bestest girlfy

2011-12-23T14:21:00.024+08:00

Friday, 23rd December 2011

With my bestest girlfy, Shirah <3

Missing her muchy now ):

update

2011-12-22T13:17:00.000+08:00

Thursday, 22nd December 2011

Long overdue bowling pictures.

Been very extremely busy with work.

Shall do a proper update soon.

Xoxo.

sleepless night

2011-12-11T03:55:00.003+08:00

Sunday, 11th December 2011

Sigh, its 0353 hours and im still wide awake.

I can't fvcking get my sleep.

My head's spinning.

I want to blog but I don't have the mood to do so.

That's all for now.

i need a getaway

2011-12-07T16:04:00.003+08:00

Wednesday, 7th December 2011

Yeeeesssssszzzzaaaaaaa today's my off day and finally I was able to wake up late! Wuhoooo! I woke up at probably 1500 hours and thanks to the rain for making me fast asleep! Just a short update for now. Currently, I have been extremely busy with work. Thank god that my colleagues are all an awesome bunch. We are more like a family. Finally, I got a retail job that I am able to faithfully stick with it.

Apologies for my stupid english here. I'm actually too lazy to update my blog. There's a lot of things that have been racing through my mind. All I need now is a getaway. A short trip. Waiting for my first pay on the 7th of January to go to Bali or Phuket or Ipoh or Port Dickson or Batam with love and friends. Perhaps?

Will be going probably on February to March. Can't wait!

time flies

2011-11-30T14:30:00.001+08:00

Wednesday, 30th November 2011

There's nothing much for me to update. Urmm I don't know where should I start from. Erk anyways, tomorrow is my first day of work. Wish me luck, aytes? There I go again... I have to stand for long hours once more. Hopefully, I managed to faithfully stick to this job for months. Besides, I got a two month contract. I will be working full time and yes, no more leisure and free time anymore.

I don't know why but I just feel that time flies far too fast. It's almost the end of November and it's approximately a month to a new year. Then from new year, it will then be a week or two to my O's result. Every time I mention the word result, my heart skipped a beat. My heart was racing. Damn, if I don't make it to poly I will apply NAFA or private Diploma.

Inhale exhale.

CD Family Day @ Sentosa

2011-11-28T02:17:00.040+08:00

Monday, 28th November 2011

Upon reaching Sentosa, I insisted on taking the iFly but Naqib refused to and doubt that we had to pay. Therefore, we went to take the Skyride and then came down by the Luge. It was so exhilarating and fun because i've never took this rides before and so does Naqib. As we reached the ground, Naqib's friends came with their girlfriend. As it was raining, we had our lunch at at Macdonald's for a lil while and then went to the iFly viewing gallery. I gasp in awe to see them miraculously fly. We then saw the registration counter for the CD Family Day but sadly, it has been fully redeemed. If only... If only we went to register as soon as we reach i'm sure we would be able to take the iFly. Sigh. Such a waste because iFly cost $90. Sigh.

As soon as the sun began to envelope the sky once more with its radiant rays, Naqib's friends and their girlfriend including us went to take the Skyride and Luge once more. After that, we watched Songs By The Sea at 1940 hours show. The show sucks pretty terrible indeed. I only like the water, lights and fireworks. Haha.

After the show ended, we took Skyride and Luge again. This time it was much more fun and fonder because this time the darkness has blanket the sky. You can see how radiant Sentosa have been lit up during the Night from the top view. I love the Luge! All of us raced down! Haha! It was so breathtaking!

We then departed from Sentosa and head to Harbourfront to have our dinner. Had some decent chats and coversations. Trained back home. Home sweet home.

dearest bbyG

2011-11-27T02:10:00.002+08:00

Sunday, 27th November 2011

My dearest babyG; Neshah and Shirah.

Thanks to them for accompanying me to interview on Friday.

I got a job at Ted Baker, Vivocity.

Starting work on 1st December.

This time i'm working as a temporary full time.

Pretty blessed. Alhamdulilah.

Oh yeah, i'm gonna get ready now to go to Sentosa for CD Family Day with Naqib.

Hopefull get to take the iFly.

Will be taking the Skyride and Luge for the first time with my sweetheart.

Till then.

swimming @ leb's condo

2011-11-26T14:03:00.009+08:00

Saturday, 26th November 2011

Swimming @ Leb's condominium.

Had some talks by the pool.

Pizzas, chickens and some snacks.

Star gazing, watched the clouds.

Reached home at prolly 0400 hours.

Elated than ever! <3

blasting moments

2011-11-24T03:35:00.001+08:00

Thursday, 24th November 2011

It's 0321 hours and i'm still wide awake. I've just ended the phone call with my Atinbby. Finally, managed to have a catch up conversation with her after ages! I can't deny that I really miss her lots. I hope I would be able to meet her soon. Real soon. Much missess. ):

So, I really had a busy day today. First, I sent Naqib food at Punggol North Fire Post. What was worst was that I was caught in the heavy rain, thunders and lightnings. By the time I reached his workplace, my hair, pants and everything were drenched. Thereafter, I went to Pasir Ris and pass my friend her stuff. Afterwhich, I walked to granny's place. Again, it was raining profusely.

Upon reaching granny's place, I sigh in great relieve. By then, it's already evening. I was supposed to meet Dewi but since it was still raining and my clothing were quite drenched, I had to dry them all. I hope I would be able to make it up to her soon. At prolly 2000 hours met my dearest Shirah at Downtown. Had our catchup conversations and soon after that, my lovely Neshah came.

It was a blast! Alhamdulilah, life's good. Now I have a number of girlfriend to trust on. For sure, I always got my boyfie as always.

And oh, can't wait to go ice skating with Naqib and Shirah today!

pretty occupied

2011-11-23T12:56:00.004+08:00

Wednesday, 23rd November 2011

My favorite crazy girl; Dewi <3

Been very busy lately as I've been going out everyday without fail.

I've yet to search for a job.

Well, I shall do a proper update soon.

Toodles!

Happy 14th Monthsary!

2011-11-20T12:38:00.002+08:00

Sunday, 20th November 2011

Happy 14th Monthsary, Sweetheart!

20-11-2011

Prom night

2011-11-20T01:12:00.002+08:00

Saturday, 19th November 2011

Prom Night; 19th November 2011

@ Roxy Grand Mecure
Food sucks.
Everything sucks.

much luv

2011-11-20T00:44:00.000+08:00

Thursday, 17th November 2011

much luv<3

ecstaticly free

2011-11-16T13:27:00.003+08:00

Wednesday, 16th November 2011

I am obviously jubilant and contented that O's has came to an end. I will be having approximately, a five months holidays starting from now. Right now, i'm still hoping and waiting for Airasia's reply. Nevertheless, I will not delay any further and still try my best to find a job.

Currently, i'm feeling very sick and weak as i'm down with fever, flu, cough and sore throat. Due to that, I can't really speak much right now as every time I talk, my throat hurts much more. The reason that i'm sick maybe because i'm too lethargic and somnolent from the lack of sleep and rest. As you knew, the last few days I have worked for long hours and I did went out like every time. Hmmm.

Seriously, I can lay on my bed the whole day and just thrash my whole body on the bed and zzzzz. Anyways, yesterday went with my dearest boyfie and my lovely Shirah. At first, we thought of catching a movie but since it's kinda late and there's not much variety of interesting shows, we gave it and miss and had our dinner at Macdonald's. It was Shirah's treat. Thereafter, we laze around for awhile and head for a game of bowling. Oh no, not a game but two games of bowling. It was Naqib's treat for the both games. Well, I started out good in the first place and kinda suck during the last few turns. Haha. Overall, I had a perky and upbeat time with them both. <3

So, after sending Shirah off, Naqib and I settled down and had a talk. Well, it have been quite a long time since we had this kind of talks. I really miss us sitting on the water breaker and had a heart to heart talk. Sigh. Oh well, it's okay. I love who and what we are right now. I am blessed that our relationship have been sailing smoothly. I am happy with who you are right now. Thank you for the support, love, care, sacrifices and everything that you've done for me.

It's almost 14 months we've been together. 6 years of knowing each other. 17 months of failed relationship in 2007. I know we can do better than what we did in the past. Lastly, i'm proud of the mistakes I've done in the past. Not that i'm proud for the wrongs but i'm just taking the positivist out of it. Because of those mistakes and experience, we've become a better person now. Not boasting, just saying. Oh whatever.

I'm having prom on Friday the 18th. Excited? Nop, cause' i'm really really sick and weak. My face is ever pale. Hope I get well soon. :/

it's almost the end of O's!

2011-11-13T22:57:00.002+08:00

Sunday, 13th November 2011

*Last few days pictures*

Well... Guess what? TOMORROW WILL BE MY LAST PAPER!!!!! Wuhooo! It's only an hour paper of science mcq question! Thereafter, I can really enjoy myself! Actually, i've started enjoying myself already eversince the malay paper ended! Muahahahha!

Anyways yesterday, Naqib fetched me from work at Suntec Covection Hall. Oh yeah, I worked for a two day event for The Event Company. Kinda lethargic and lackadaisical. Imagine I got to report at 6.30AM on my first day and 7AM on my second day! How apathetic! Grr.

So... Naqib did a whole lot of shopping yesterday after fetching me from work. Then, he also bought me a trench coat! Goshhh I love it so muchhh! Gonna get more trench coat when I got the bucks! After shopping, trained down to Pasir Ris and had a drink. Drop by Naqib's place and unexpectedly I fell asleep after being so weary and comatose from the lack of sleep.

Okie dokie I gotta zzzzz now, wakeup early tomorrow and study!

Goonight love!

outline of future

2011-11-09T13:46:00.006+08:00

Wednesday, 9th November 2011

Yesssszzzaaaaa finally I got all the time to actually magnetized myself to the computer once again! So... I'm gonna do a proper post today. Heh. I must say that there's a lot of things that have been making me mirthful and perky than ever.

First thing first, it's my dearest beloved boyfie. We've been talking a lot about our future lately. More or less, we have an outline of the future. Insyallah every of our desire and dreams gonna be fulfilled. Amin. Planned a lot for future jobs, financial, savings and many more. Thank god that we always have each other's back and support. I'm so auspicious about that.

I know that fate and who are we destine to is in the hands of god. Nevertheless, I never fail to pray to the above every night for us. Insyallah god willl fulfill my prayers and may I always be with you. This relationship means so much to me. It means everything to me. Not only are you my boyfriend but you are also my brother, bestie, friend and soul mate. I have to admit that you have been such a responsible boyfie all this while. You've been there for me through thick and thin, help me out in despair, pay for my school stuffs and all. Sigh. I promise I will pay everything back to you when I've work, okay?

I'm not like other girls outside. Who willingly let her boyfriend to buy for her (expensive) stuff and what more if its just a 'want' and not a necessities. Not like as if you 'need' it. I'm not that kind of girl. As for me, if my boyfriend have great responsibility for my meals its more than enough already. Once in a while its okay to be pampered by guys but not every time. It makes me feel ashamed, humiliated and it doesn't make me feel good. You know those kind of sukcy feeling that you get like urmm 'terutang budi' that you just want to pay everything back? Something like that. And oh, cause i'm not thick skin.

On the posittive note, 5 more days till the end of O's! Hahaha yesssszzzzaaaaaaa I seriously can't wait for all of it to be seriously over! 3 more papers to go! Tomorrow, I will be re-taking my both Malay papers since I scored a B3 in O's Malay paper in June. Well, talking about education... Been discussing lots of it with Naqib. Been hoping for the best and preparing the worst for my results. For sure, I screwed my science. And kinda screwed my history essay too yesterday. So it means that I kinda have a slim chance of going poly. Hmm its okay. The other alternative of my education will be private diploma and thereafter, I will study in overseas unniversity.

I told myself, it's okay if you fail and take a long path towards success. It doesn't matter how fast or how slow I get there, as long as I don't stop schooling, there's always a bright future for me. Actually, I wanna be those people who work in labs, study about cells, disease, human body and those kind of biescience stuff. But if there's no opportunity for me, I want to become Paramedic. Go for calls, accidents and rush them to hospital. I'm not afraid of blood, wounds, cuts or whatever. I'm keen in doing jobs that gotta do with all that brutal and gore thing.

And in case if being a Paramedic is a failure, its okay. I believe that god has planned something better for me. Insyallah.

:,)

convivially contented

2011-11-07T13:27:00.002+08:00

Monday, 7th November 2011

Hi hi hi! Good morning! Rise and shine! Yayay today am havin a movie date with my sweetheart Naqib! Actually, I gotta get ready but here I am blogging away! Hahaha will just make this short aytes! So, i'm left with both malay papers, history and science mcq and i'm done with my o's! Wohoooo!

Tomorrow, i'm having history but i've yet to study. Gotta get back home before evening and study till tomorrow morning! Okie den, gotta go off now! Yayay! Can't wait for the end of O's and five months holidays!!!! Yayay! I got LOADS of plans!!!

Xoxo!

(Y)

2011-10-30T18:05:00.001+08:00

Sunday, 30th October 2011

Hi hi hi hello! I've just finished baking some yummy cookies! It tasted like Famous Amos, seriously, no kidding! Even my mumsy and lil sissy said so! Muahahahha! Okie dokie, i've been lazing at homey since morning! What really made my day was when I realized that my next O's paper is on Tuesday and not tomorrow! Wuhoooo! It means that I got more time to study (and procrastinate)! Hahahahha shall start studying during midnight till tomorrow morning! Bohooooooo!

Well, thank god that my both Maths paper were manageable. I roughly look through my answers in the net. I did okay but paper 2 was a disaster because I wasted a lot of marks and it was all due to careless mistakes bohooo! ): Well, I hope I will get a C or a D. I'm happy already. Haha. As long I get to go to poly or not, private diploma...

Xoxo!

immahappygirl

2011-10-29T17:15:00.002+08:00

Saturday, 29th October 2011

Hi, later i'm having a date with my dearest Naqib!

Who say that when you're in a relationship, you can't go for date(s) anymore?

Convocation

2011-10-28T16:06:00.003+08:00

Friday, 28th October 2011

Convocation Ceremony

15th October 2011

Despite that, I had a bad day and I physically looked e worst.

thank god its easy!

2011-10-27T22:07:00.003+08:00

Thursday, 27th October 2011

I know I am fat. K.
Hi hi hi hello! Wohooo i'm feeling so elated and mirthful now! I don't know why but perhaps it was because of my O's maths paper 1 just now! How was it?! It was manageable! Kinda easy, I should say! Hahaha! Due to that, it makes me feels so confident that i'm procrastinating again to study! Well, its 2157 hours now and i've been taking a chill pill since I've reached home from school!

Yesterday night, I didn't study! Yes I procrastinated again! I was so confident to wake up at 2AM, I snooze and snooze my alarm till 10AM then I wokeup,panicked and studied for around two hours plus! Thank god that the maths formula and notes book that I was studying was so effective! It was published by one of the teacher in my school. Thank god, seriously! Read 104 pages of her book made me understood everything on maths! Well, not everything but almost everything! Hahahaha!

Now, i'm afraid that tomorrow's paper will be tougher since paper 1 was quite easy. Another thing i'm afraid of is the moderation! Tsk. Anyways, yesterday I spent my night baking putih telor cornflakes for my family and I to omnomnom and for my neighbor who was celebrating Deepavali yesterday. Not forgetting, I baked cupcakes for my dearest Naqib since he've been craving for it for ages! Hahahha! Okie dokie I shall either study or go to bed now!

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

a fit of fury

2011-10-26T15:17:00.003+08:00

Wednesday, 26th October 2011

It's such a bitch. Now then they say they want it in a white background and hair tied up. Why didn't you tell me earlier?! Mudaafvcckkerrr. So, now what? I just gotta dress up, make up and put my heels on just to capture pictures? Dayum! I'm so occupied and have been tinking so much time about my job after O's. I can't even be bothered w my O's. Well, I can sense foreboding for my results. It's okay. I have made my decision. If I didn't make it to poly, I will take private diploma with my own bucks since i'm working. That should be sufficient.

Sayonara bitches!

And oh tomorrow is my maths paper 1 wish me luck!

wish me luck

2011-10-25T14:53:00.003+08:00

Tuesday, 25th October 2011

Resubmitted pictures to AirAsia. A more appropriate one. Hope everything goes on smoothly. Oh yes, anyways went for Jetstar cabin crew interview just now at Roxy Grand Mecure Hotel. I don't think I am successful of getting the job as I wasn't well equipped with documents. It's okay. I still got any opportunity with Tiger Airways, AirAsia and SilkAir. If not... then, I might think of something else. Wish me luck.

tension arose

2011-10-24T04:29:00.003+08:00

Monday, 24th October 2011

It's 0422 hours and I've just finished studying. Basically, I tried to feed myself with some terrific vocabulary. I read some modal essays too. In spite of studying till this late hour, I've yet to study for my Situational Writting. Nevertheless, I got myself armed with great confidence now. No, not great. Perhaps just some confidence. I can feel the adrenaline pumped through my blood when I envisioned myself entering the exam hall to take my O's. Wish me luck, aytes?

I guess I gotta tuck myself to bed now. I'm waking up at prolly 0730 hours to continue another four to five hours of studies again before I depart for school. Thank god that paper starts at 1330 hours but... There's two papers today. Bleah.

Endurance.

Three more weeks....

getaway

2011-10-23T11:17:00.053+08:00

Sunday, 23rd October 2011

I believe.. I ought to trim my fvcked up fringe. So... Yesterday, my dearest boyfie brought me out because I was dead bored at home trying to study when I wasn't in a mood for it. I know that tomorrow's my English paper one and two and i'm aware that i'm gonna be dead meat because I haven't study for a single thang. Well, it's never too late. I constantly tell myself that but by telling myself that it made me procrastinate more and more. I'm forever and always a procrastinator. That will never change ( in which I hope so it will someday ).

Whatdduuppp? Both of us thought of going Airport first before heading to Downtown but since it's kinda late, we gave Airport a miss. We both watched One Day at Cathay E!hub and I guess it was okay? I think they should elaborate more on the climax in which they didn't. So, every time you almost cry, it moved on to another scene. Well, it was always on Naqib for our meals, movie, arcade, my needs, my wants and be it, whatever. Let me repeat myself again, always! Unless if I got some bucks. It sucks to be jobless and I am lucky enough to have such a responsible and understanding boyfie! <3

It's okay, three more weeks and i'm free from this plight and O level bullshit in which up to now i'm not taking it seriously. Yes, I ought to study back later. I've become the muthafvcking lazy girl again. Bleah. So, after i'm done w my bloggy, gotta do my resume and attach my photos together with it. Hopefully, I got the steward job. $2+ k. Seriously?! Fvckyessssssssssssssssssss! If I don't get it, I guess imma just work under SATS or Airasia. Wish me luck!!! <3

Happy 13th Monthsary

2011-10-20T10:52:00.081+08:00

Thursday, 20th October 2011

Happy 13th Monthsary Sweetheart!

Having you is like a gift I've got from above. I'm blessed and auspicious to always have you in my life. Well, it have been six years that we've known each other and i'm proud to say that we have witnessed each other grow. I hope this beautiful relationship will bloom till our golden age and make this love everlasting than ever. I've watched you grow from boys to man. I was there for you through out your NS life and yes, few more more months till you're done with it. As for me, you've watched me grow when I was still in Primary School and then to Secondary School. Then now, you've watched me graduate. Awww, I miss those moments that we had.

Yes, you are boyfriend but at the same time I felt that you are my childhood friend too because you're the only person that still exist in my life ever since I was twelve. Apart from that, I feel that you are my brother too whom always take great care of my well being. The best part is that, you are my bestie cause' you've always been there for me, comforting me, sharing our problems together and even gossiping. Haha. You're the bestest man of earth. You're my everything. <3

Alright, moving on. Just now, Naqib and I went to Changi Airport to drop idle around and we also drop by to see Naqib's mumsy. Thereafter, we had KFC for our late lunch cum early dinner and oh yes, we watched the aeroplanes too and talked about our dream job. Awhile after that, bumped into Naqib's mum again and she questioned me if I wanna work with her under AirAsia but I kinda have doubts about that. Maybe it's just not my type of work huh. Haha.

Then, she asked me if I wanna be a stewardess and well, i've been actually thinking of working as that after O's. She straight away brought me down to see the management of what I don't know and recommend me. So, all I have to do now is submit my resume and insyallah I can get it.

Moving on, departed from airport and bussed to Downtown. I know its a lil' too late to watch Real Steel but eventually, we catch the 1925 hours show. We thought on watching Paranormal Activity 3 but i'm afraid that it's not worth the bucks. So... While waiting for our movie to begin, the usual us; ARCADE! Hahahahahaha okie dokie I had so much fun and yes, i'm very perky. Thank you, love.

Okay let's update a lil' about school. There's officially no more school but just O's.Yayay! Just now was my Science Practical. Hmm... I think I did okay. On Monday, I will be having my English paper. I haven't really study that much. The only thing I did studied for was Maths. I have covered all topics for maths but only left three more?

Alright then, gotta zzzzzzzz now!

Goodnight love.

Haywire

2011-10-09T18:53:00.005+08:00

Sunday, 9th October 2011

Yesterday's.

It's 1845 right now and I've yet to study. I've spent half of my day zzzzzzzz. Hangover. So, yesterday was such a mundane Saturday. Naqib and I head down to Town at prolly 2015 hours. We had Best Fries Forever! Yumyum. Thereafter, met my dearest Shirah there. Our plan was kinda haywire. Hence, Naqib and I trained back down to Pasir Ris. Idled and lazed around our usual favorite spot to have a drink. I must say I enjoyed the talks we had. Not forgetting, the thunder and rainy night. Gosh, it was so damn cold and chilling. By 0400 hours, cabbed back homey and zzzzzzz.

I gotta say that Naqib have been the bestest man in the entire unniverse. I am proud that he have changed to a better him just to satisdy to my need and make me contented more than ever. I am perky that he actually got along with my dearest friends. Not just that, he have trust them too. What's best? It's that it's not only me who have been there for my friends but Naqib too. I just love the way we are right now. Never leave me okay? I'll love you always and I am very happy to be with you. (,:

# 11 more days to O's

bless me Friday

2011-10-07T01:17:00.002+08:00

Friday, 7th October 2011

It's 0112 hours now and I've just finished studying for today.

Studied 5 hours straight and an hour in the morning since I didn't attend school as I overslept.

So, I studied for a total of 6 hours and did something productive today.

Now, waiting for my dearest Naqib to call before I zzzzzz.

And yessssszzzzaaaaaa it's Friday!

Meeting my boyfie today after days of not meeting!

Yayay! I can't wait!

Till then!

# 13 more days to O'levels

sounds of missing you

2011-10-07T00:50:00.000+08:00

Friday, 7th October 2011

Missing my Muhd Naqib E'zuwan Bin E'esa muchy ):

We hadn't been meeting for days as i'm busy studying for my O's.

I have to wait for the weekend to see him.

Please take care.

I miss you.

Xoxo.

# 14 more days to O'levels

dearest girlfy

2011-10-06T01:05:00.001+08:00

Thursday, 6th October 2011

It's been some time since we last spent quality time together.

Finally, we did.

Last week.

Love you always. <3

Nike high-heels

2011-10-04T16:50:00.001+08:00

Tuesday, 4th October 2011

Aren't these heels so yummy? Well, its been some time since I've been searching for these heels and finally, I found it! The worst part is that i'm damn broke right now but the best part is that, Naqib is purchasing for me this heels! He's buying for me a pair of this heel! Yayay!

How elated I am! Oh god damn it, I'm dying for this heels! I'm aware that this heels are difficult to find in Singapore or i'm not even sure if they even sell it here? The problem now is that, I don't know which one should I buy? The red or the blue? The red looks very feminine and create this chic look. However, the blue one seems to be more sophisticated as its high cut and its also very abstracting! Especially the Nike logo! It really stand out clearly!

Did I just made my decision? I guess imma get the blue one! Hek. I really love my boyfie! Naqib said that he's purchasing for me just as a token of appreciation. Aww, such a sweetheart. Isn't it? Thank you for everything love, I really appreciate everything that you've done for me.

And yes, I know you will stand up for me and burn that bitch down since everyone regard her as 'an angel' when she's a complete jinx. I know your dirty little secrets, shorty. I'm just waiting for that one day when I will bumped into you and i'm gonna spit every inch of your dirty bullshit! For sure, i'm going to burn her down. There is a high possibility of us bumping into each other cause you don't live that far from me. Fvcking concubine.

I'm speaking in general. I didn't state who was the subject of my topic. But I gotta admit, I love making people wonder who i'm actually referring to and if I am actually referring them. Be your own mirror. Hah.

boisterous day ever

2011-10-03T23:46:00.062+08:00

Monday, 3rd October 2011

The pictures above are yesterday's.

Yesterday was such an amiable day for me and it have been some time since I've been this vivacious and buoyant. I must say that yesterday was such a beau. Since my workplace was short of manpower, I called Atin and blissfully, she turned up! And yes, my both cousins did worked with me too!

After work ended, Naqib fetched Atin and I and we then bus down to Downtown East while my both cousins depart for home. The three of us played arcade like one lunatic kids. I can recall everything back how Atin movement made such an impact to the Motor racing game cause she was my pillion and she tried to distract Naqib while I tried to beat Naqib in the race. We were entirely exhausted and weary especially after playing many games of Basketball. Haha. It was damn hilarious!

Not just that, we then have a bowling game. It was very humorous that Atin and Naqib were very competetive while I was such a big fat loser during the start of the game. Eventually, I managed to pull it off and beat them both. It was unexpected, but oh well! I can't deny that I was very gleeful.

The great thing was that all of the activities above wasn't planned. It was more of going with the flow and what we felt like doing during that period of time. For once, let me repeat this again, for once, I spent my a day pay on leisure. Strictly on leisure and not on food at all. Basically we were having too much fun that we had entirely forgot about food.

And I really appreciate those heart to heart talk too.

Nevertheless, I never have forgotten about my Shirah despite me being in great contentment. I wish she could have tagged along with us but by the time if I ask her to tag along, it would have been quite late. I'm sorry. You know right that we'll be spending more quality time after my O's.

So, yesterday was also the last day of me working until my O's over. Yesterday was also the last day that I actually meet my friends and boyfie because my O's around the corner. I've yet to study. I've yet to start studying. I ought to start studying tomorrow. I have pledged to. I know I can pass my other subjects but what worries me the most is my maths and english.

It's never too late. If you can't fly, then run. If you can't run, then walk. If you can't walk, then crawl. But whatever you do, keep on moving and never give up.

17 more days to O' Level.

Primetime Fall Fashion

2011-09-30T19:16:00.021+08:00

Friday, 30th September 2011

Primetime Fall Fashion @ Avalon yesterday.
Thanks to Nuffnang that I actually won two tickets to this event.
Cheers!

Chalet craziness

2011-09-25T20:08:00.005+08:00

Sunday, 25th September 2011

Chalet pictures;

19th and 20th September 2011

I had a great time with all of them! <3

Robinsons and mio TV presents PRIMETIME FALL FASHION

2011-09-21T15:36:00.000+08:00

Wednesday, 21st September 2011

Its shocking that Robinsons and Mio Tv actually come together to organize this Prime Time Fall Fashion! Yayay! Although fashion week has past by, its great to have another event like this. I really hope i would get the chance to attend this event.

It's this 29th September, 7.30pm

Avalon, Marina Bay Sands.

Who would love to go with me?! If you are please update me and go to http://www.nuffnang.com.sg/robinsons/ to get your RSVP!

See ya there!

Happy 1st Anniversary ❣

2011-09-20T12:24:00.023+08:00

Tuesday, 20th September 2011

❦ Happy 1st Anniversary sweetheart! ❣

It just felt tat i'm in the seventh heaven to always have you by my side despite the catastrophe and affliction that came thundering past us. Well, i'm actually proud and beatific that we have actually elevate this relationship with all our efforts and might. How perky and upbeat am I. It just felt that I got a gift from the heaven above. Let's just hope that out relationship will be auspicious as ever.

I know; We all have own stories. Our own mistakes. May it be rational or irrational. Vice-versa. For all that I know we have disarrayed them all, apologized and come clean. That's the end of that. I just extremely hope you would continue to stay faithful and always be true towards me.

I never thought that you would be the guy that would meet my expectation of my 'Ideal Dream Guy'. Obviously its because of the first relationship we had in 2006. 24th January 2006. That was tottally disastrous but I know that despite those monstrous circumstances, you do love me despite our young age and maturity. It's never too young to love cause' it's never too young to die. I still remember that we knew each other through Friendster on 22nd December 2005, I guess? I clearly remember the conversation we had and our first meet up. How precious are all these memories. It's still fresh in my thoughts.

Unfortunately, the relationship ended on 24th June 2007. It lasted for 1 year and 5 months. Things started to go haywire. You and your life. While I lead mine. But throughout the years, we still keep in touch with one another. We became more of a good friends, a place to console and not forgetting, enemies too. I don't know why we always fight and argue like couples even though we're not together. Haha.

Moving on, things started to get a little serious when we affectionately contacted back on 28th March 2010.
We tried to work things out and after six month of contacting, we patched back on 20th September 2010. Before and after that, we went through a lot of agony, affliction and heart palpitating event. Convivially, we still didn't give up and continue holding on tight. Early of 2011, things started to settle down and set itself to tranquility and I hope this would continue forever.

Seriously, if there's no pain without gain. Don't envy sweet couples out there because you never know their story and what they've gone through. After a heavy rain and thunderstorm, there is always the sun that came shining by. I believe that efforts that matters the most. The three principles of relationship that I hold on to; Trust, Faithfulness and Sincerity.

I actually can't believe that there was a second happenstance for Naqib and I. I can't actually believe the words that flow out of my mouth came alive. When Naqib asked me for a patch up in 2007 after we've broke up, I declined. I said that just believe in fate. If it's meant to be it will be. Maybe three or four years down the road we will be together, who knows? Just believe in fate. And poof, my words turned to reality.

Right now, I am extremely contented and jubilant to have you in my life once again. Please don't stop putting efforts and time on me, fetching me from school, sending me home, bringing me out, putting me to sleep, saying night prayers for me, snuggling cuddling me, caring for me and lastly, loving me. Thank you for being such a responsible and great boyfie. It feels good that I don't need anybody unless him because to me his my boyfie, brother and also my bestie.❤

World Runway Premiere Fashionquake Aid 2011(ll)

2011-09-19T20:49:00.000+08:00

Monday, 19th September 2011

Killer heels.

World Runway Premiere Fashionquake Aid 2011

2011-09-19T13:51:00.000+08:00

Sunday, 18th September 2011

World Runway Premiere Fashionquake Aid 2011.
Singapore - France - UK - US - Brazil - Italy - Japan - Britain

Thumbs up for Singapore as they managed to get into the second round.
Eventually, UK's the winner.
Oh well, I had an ecstatic and elated time with my dearest Shirah<3
I will upload our pixy soon, aytes?
Xoxo.